One of the most frightening moments of my life was when I found myself waxing about what leadership was and wasn’t—and suddenly turned around and discovered there were people actually (WTF) following me, including people for whom single decisions I made could have a significant impact on their life.Read More
Individual, one-to-one connections are what I want out of and what I want to put into a community.
That's the only real value I can give and it's the only value I seek.
I'm not a community leader.
I'm an individual person going somewhere. And I'm doing the best I can to learn and grow and be true to myself along the way.
There are a few people who will travel with me.
And for me that is enough.
Wince though I may:
I (eventually) appreciate
each excruciating reminder
that not everyone likes me.
That there are others
That I am
biased and broken and blameworthy,
bigheaded, pigheaded, and worse.
That I am good at being wrong.
That I am great at being wrong.
I've been thinking about what it was about NodeConf that had me a little anxious going into it.
Was it my fear of looking like an amateur developer? Not really. Was it worrying about camping with two small children? Nope. (They did great!) And it wasn't even about the fact that conferences are socially overstimulating for me. (That's a guarantee for my introverted self.)
Then I identified the feeling: It was a tiny fear that maybe I had too high of expectations.Read More
How did you get here?
Erm, set aside the stork for now. I mean: how did you get where you’re at in your life and your career?
You probably have a pretty good story to tell about how you set out to do (a), but because of (b), you’re now doing (c), which you never could have anticipated.
No matter how many things you square or divide, there’s no Pythagorean theorem for triangulating your way through life.
Unexpected things happen.
Gut-punched or overjoyed, grieving or grateful, we adjust and move ever forward.Read More
Sit down. Okay, let me hear it.
You know—the thing you’re really passionate about. It’s distracting you completely right now. It keeps you up, wakes you up, and catches you daydreaming in between the rude interruptions of real life.Read More
I woke up in a Los Angeles hotel bed in the early hours of last Tuesday and picked up my phone to see it was 5am and I had a new email from an old friend.
Of course I opened it.
A minute later, I was crying. A week later, I'm still heartbroken over it.
The email provided a visceral reminder that people will vividly remember the day you broke their trust--and your perspective won't matter the slightest in their mind. It provided another reminder as well: when people are involved, there's no such thing as a business decision that isn't also personal one.Read More